Down the rabbit hole (into my mind)

I'm such a nerd, haha, just look at the title of my blog, "Matrix" reference... Anyways. My mind is a scary place don't know if you wanna join me in this adventure.... I've had lots of problems in my life that I just don't talk to anyone about. I've done stupid things to keep myself going. I've fallen into depression. I pretend I've gotten out, but I haven't. At least I stopped cutting myself though... So glad that didn't scar..... Pill popping, is reduced. Suicide attempts, and thoughts have at least subsided. Last attempt was a long time ago (well over 2 years) my last near attempt was about two years ago. This thing called "life" it sucks. I don't know why I'm here. I don't feel like I belong here. No one gets me really. I'm just the freaky kid no one likes pretty much...